Saturday, 10 March 2012

Signs of a Brain Injury

Signs And Symptoms of Brain Injury
The original title was going to say “mild brain injury,” however I think the medical staff should stop classifying brain injuries that way.  It is abominable that one would relate to any trauma to the most critical organ of the body as mild.  It is misleading to say the least.  A mild brain injury can still leave lasting, permanent impairments to the patient.  Now I’m sure the editor will have fun with the plural found in “impairments” but I assure you that as complex as the brain is the likelihood of escaping with only one disability is as close to impossible as one gets.  I do not want to frighten you but it is imperative that you the reader appreciate the scope of the serious nature of brain injury.  There is no such thing as minor.  You may deny and hope for the best but be prepared for a life of hardship.  You may want to sweep the mild almost laughable short term memory damage your loved one now displays under the rug but believe you me, it will come back to haunt him or her and you for years to come. 
The argument will be in a statement of “Well, we all forget from time to time, so what is the big deal?” 
Try living with a mild memory disability for a moment.  The frequency that a non brain injured person will forget is for the sake of argument, 1 out of 10, while a brain injured is 4 out of 10.  That means that you lose your wallet one time while a brain injured loses it 4 times.  Now these numbers are arbitrary and I only want to demonstrate to the non brain injured what it is like to live for a moment in my broken brain. The frequency to my forgetting is 3 or 4 times more than what it is for you.  I have lost 7 wallets so far.  “So what.” you might say.  Well that is seven driver’s licenses at $35.00, cancellation of credit cards, of re-applying for social insurance card and birth certificates so that I can get my ID back.  That is several hundred dollars not to mention any money left inside the wallet.  It is leaving the house to mail a letter and getting half way to the mail box and realizing that the briefcase is at home and turning back and picking it up.  I then get to the mailbox and realize that the letter was beside the briefcase.  It is having your wife say please bring in the stroller from the car as you are walking out of the door and getting into the car and driving away because between the door and the car you forgot.

It is being chastised by co-workers and bosses because you look and sound normal therefore you are faking it and are simply incompetent or lazy when you fail to remember to complete tasks.  Then this “mild” memory affliction weaves its way into your daily routine.  Your wife gets frustrated because you remember some things and not others.  Are you faking it she asks the doctor?  Why is it he remembers a news event but can’t turn off the element?  Your children take advantage of your memory loss like all good survivors do and when you ground them for something they know by the second day you will have forgotten it.  What about that appointment?  Returning an important message?  The self confidence of the brain injured takes a nose dive as he questions his every move.  Did I say or do that and immediately when you are asked did you lock the door or turn off the element you can’t recall.  Unscrupulous people take advantage of this and quite often to avoid conflict the brain injured give in to an argument where they were in fact correct but due to circumstance could not find the words to argue the point effectively. Now we have only scraped the top off this iceberg because the results of this continued memory problem incites a whole new process called frustration, anger, misunderstanding that often leads to divorce. 
Remember, injury survivors enjoy a 90% divorce rate.

So now that I have somewhat enlightened you let us explore the many signs and symptoms.

Depending upon whether you are a school age person or employed one of the potential signs to come out of brain injury is:.

1)      Reduced Attention and Concentration

Employ your teacher or co-worker to keep tabs on the brain injured performance.  If grades decline or the person is being reprimanded often at work this could indicate trauma to the brain.

2)      Memory Loss

This can affect long term memory however in most cases some level of short term memory loss occurs.  This is usually permanent as short term memory is located in one region of the brain and long term memory is dispersed all over the brain.  Some people with severe cases cannot remember anything at all about the “NOW” but can tell you who won the Super Bowl 10 years ago.  When you talk to them and then leave the room and return they can’t recall that you were just there with them.

3)      Emotional and Personality changes

Easily frustrated.
Easily angered.
Overreaction to events.
Decreased emotional responsiveness.

That is a big list but it can be displayed in many aspects.  Everything that will be listed here may not reveal itself in the patient.  I personally relate to three of the above six listed.  I no longer assemble items or repair things or help people move because my tolerance is very limited.  To avoid frustration and not because I am looking for an easy way out I avoid things that may cause frustration.  When I get frustrated, I get angry and in fact embarrassingly, I used to get very angry.  I punched holes into walls, my vocabulary was quite colorful.  I  took an anger management course and delved into my brain injury in a way I had never done previously.  Now that I can identify some of the triggers that cause frustration I can reduce the level of outbursts. My loving wife has also had to learn on the fly how to monitor my behavior and identify those moments where I need to take a break so that I avoid those frustrations that can escalate.  Her role is critical to my success.  By not placing demands on me and identifying those things that can cause me frustration and communicating to me that it’s time to walk away, the incidents are few and far between.  It is a symbiotic relationship.  Yes, I can manage on my own but a relationship, and more so a successful relationship is dependant on both parties working in unison.  It is a new dance that we both must participate in and in this sense she becomes the lead and I relinquish that role.

4)      Cognitive Changes

Reduced reasoning and problem solving
Difficulty following directions
Misunderstanding what is said by others
Difficulty expressing thoughts verbally

In this I see all four in myself to one degree or another.  My problem solving is quite good and in fact math comes to me easily.  Prior to surgery I failed math 10, three times.  I passed Math 11 with an A.  Difficulty with following orders for me is directly related to the memory recall set back.  I can follow directions if they are not given too quickly.  Give the brain injured written instructions if you do not want them to forget one of the items.  The more stressed they are in remembering the less they recall.  I take things quite literally and sometimes misinterpret what the individual is conveying to me.  I may even get offended by what they have said.  The old statement, “I forget too,” is a common statement meant to make me feel better and offered by caring people.  It offends me because I have a higher frequency of absent mindedness that the other person can’t begin to comprehend.  I ramble on and on and on and on because my thoughts are scrambled and I’m not sure until the person I’m speaking with has been bored to death by my repetitive nature as to whether they got the point or not.

5)      Social Behavioral Changes

Impulsive or inappropriate social behavior
Reduced Judgement
Decreased insight into self or others
Difficulty establishing and maintaining relationships
Difficulty following through with responsibilities at work or home.
            Inappropriate behavior can manifest itself in many forms.  In Golden Girls, Stella the older mother often spoke her mind.  Children, also find this to be quite a task and may state out loud, why is that lady so fat?  This is a mild example but it can take more serious formats such as exposing oneself in public.  Naturally we are more concerned with moderate alterations.  If more severe cases are present, you already know a brain injury exists.  Reduced judgement can come in different forms.  Poor choices of new friends who take advantage of the survivor are quite common.  I am taken advantage by others because I cannot argue effectively even if I know I am right.  All a person has to say is don’t you remember, you said this?  Now I am lost and must relinquish my position because I honestly don’t remember if I did say it or not.  I have a very patient wife and therefore my relationship is still in tact for 12 years, however that bucks the national trend for brain injured people.  The normal path is divorce, drug and alcohol abuse, crime and prison for the male population.  I have also dwelled on the final topic of not following through on responsibilities.  My brain won’t allow me to complete tasks based upon distractions and memory.  If I am doing a task and the phone rings, the other task may be stopped briefly or completely abandoned as a result of forgetting that it even existed.
Obsessing is a talent I have mastered well.  I get stuck on a subject and can’t shake it for days, weeks and even months at a time.  Some people actually get so stuck that when they are informed that they are going to the Doctor at 3:00 that afternoon, will get dressed at 9:00 AM and sit in the car awaiting the time when they must leave even if it is six hours later.  My children dread the fact that we are going to discuss a subject because I go on and on and on.  Sometimes they feed into this just to get my goat.  I have gone to counselors and have managed to get them so far off track they forget where they were.  I’m not sure that is obsession but it comes out of a fear of forgetting what I am saying and if the counselor says something or in a conversation I remember another important piece of information, I simply blurt it out.  It takes a talented person to keep me on task.

6)      Physical Complaints

Head Aches
Dizziness balance problems/vertigo
Muscle weakness
Numbness and tingling
Fatigue or difficulty sleeping
Blurred vision
Ringing in ears.

If you suffer from a head ache that is the most painful you have ever experienced, then go straight to the hospital, do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars.  This is a tell tale sign of a stroke or brain aneurysm and believe me even if it proves to be anything but that you’ll be better off than had you not gone at all.  Fifty percent of those who have an aneurysm in the brain drop dead on the spot.  In my case nausea came with the pain in the head.  I never felt weakness, tingling or numbness but to this date I tire easily.  I write about one page of this book and it takes about 1 to 2 hours.  It virtually wipes me out mentally and must retire for the night. I have erratic sleep habits.  My most common routine is to go to bed for 2 am and wake up at 8 or 9 and then have a nap at 4 P.M. and stay awake until 2.  Sometimes I get up at 3 and 4 am but can relate that to too much caffeine.  I do not suffer from blurred vision or ringing in the ears unless my wife screams at me and or whollops me with a frying pan when I act up.  O.K. a little levity, my wife is not an ogre.  My point in this exercise is to have you realize that you may suffer from one item or another or none in one category but many in another.  The objective of this exercise is to get you looking for signs of a potential brain injury and if by chance you are led to believe your loved one has suffered from one, you can take the next step of getting referred to the right specialist.  What was one of my first brushes with the rupturing of an artery occurred in Vanderhoof that June day of 1977.  In that I did experience nausea, dizziness, vertigo and muscle weakness.  It was one of those tell tale signs that was grossly overlooked by the medical community on 2 separate occasions.  The other happened on Halloween night.  Although this second event eventually led to the correct diagnosis, my G.P. was willing to pass off these signs and symptoms as that of a migraine.  I have repeated these to moments here in hopes to enlighten you on the importance of your roll as a caregiver when you the symptoms you witness are suspect.  Insist on a second opinion, insist on an MRI or CAT brain scan and don’t stop until you are shown convincing physical proof that rules out a brain injury.  Do not settle for an opinion based of an educated guess.

7)      Denial or Lack of awareness of deficits

This was and probably still is me as I slowly open my eyes to this world of brain injury.  It wasn’t until I began writing this book that I actually examined my poor behavior as a teen and managed to tie it directly to my memory deficit.  It wasn’t until 1995 that I even believed that there was anything wrong with me beyond a mild case of forget-me-not.  It has been a frightening and sometimes painful ordeal to finally look into the mirror and see a broken brain, a broken soul whose life has been tarnished with one failed opportunity after another.  The only thing that keeps me going is my personal determination to overcome.  It helps to be quite forgetful because you end up forgetting what you were mad at yourself for and off you go again determined to succeed.

8)      Difficulty on the Job or at school

This is crucial to your future.  Your boss or your teaching staff should be made aware of the brain injury and potential side affects.  I went to work in a saw mill.  I did not inform my bosses of any deficits because I didn’t have any.  I was cured back in 1977.  I almost killed a co-worker one day and that was directly related to a poor memory that I didn’t have.  I’ll elaborate on that later on, but for now it is important for you to realize that you may save your loved one the loss of job or a child from failing school and slipping down the slope of no return.  If the proper authorities are made aware of the situation they may be able to accommodate the worker or student by reassigning them to light duty and for school, tutoring may be the course of action.
            There will be many challenges, prejudices and misunderstandings by everyone you come in contact with.  Many will try to downplay the severity of the injury.  I had a psychologist state she would not write a letter supporting my application for disability status because she has seen worse cases.  I know how fortunate I am and that there are worse cases, however that does not take away from the fact that I am permanently brain injured and my performance in a work environment is jeopardized by those deficits.  I know, I experienced the anger from bosses when I forgot to push a button and caused downtime.  In one case I almost killed a co-worker because I forgot he was working near my machine and I flipped an 800 lb log.  He felt the wind of that log as it passed within inches of his head.   My goal for disability status was not to avoid work and ride welfare but to re-educate myself into a role that would suit my specific needs.  The Doctor thought differently though and that could have spelt disaster for my employer or co-worker who would have been unaware of my deficit.  Could you imagine leaving me in charge of locking up or shutting off stoves, heaters and the like?  As an employer you could stand to return to charred ruins because one step in the shut down process was overlooked by someone who looked “normal” but was hiding a memory deficit.

There isn’t even a listing referring to the eating disorders I mentioned earlier where one forgets to eat or forgets they have just eaten and eat again.  Oh yes, this is a memory issue isn’t it?  It could be a complication of the receptor responsible for informing us that we are full or we are hungry.  I cannot cover every single item that may arise from a brain injury but for every possible brain function there can be a complication of that function if the part of the brain responsible for the action is damaged.  This then encompasses every known physical and emotional dilemma discovered by mankind.  Every neurosis, every phobia, every emotional issue can manifest itself in the brain injury.  Of course not all will and some are more manageable that others but one should be cognizant of the likelihood that you will be visited by more than one issue with a brain injured person.

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